Monday, November 15, 2004
me: heya bloggy. i shall talk to u. yeah u. why should i even bother right??
bloggy: yeah u shouldnt even bother girl.
me: yeah i am trying too hard to even bother. i dont even know what i want. i am sooo sick of finding what i want. who i really am.
bloggy: dont try to hard. maybe its already infront of u. but u just deen realise.
ok i am sick. i am talking to myself. yes myself.again.
me is me and bloggy is me too. basically thats my inner me or voice.why am i answering to myself?
why do i even bother to ask when i already know? come on wake up. just WAKE up. argh.
duhs. i am soooo soo foolish larh.
my once so ruined life is back again. yeah its back. it was never gone. it has always been there. wanting to PoP up again.
why do u have to do this to me. hurh. why why why. i pray so fucking damn hard every night never givin' up till i have my answers. i wish for God to cure u and me. but it seeeems sooo long. long enough to drain my entire body.
i ve never wanted this to happen. its u. ur attitude. the way u behave. the way u talk to me. like as if i am a prisoner.
i always wanted to open up to u. but i have no courage. why are u sooo different. why am i so stubborn??
argh.
i want my own life back.
i beg you to give it back to me.
i am too tired even to ask back for my own life.
i hope it is obvious enough for u to see.
i dont want anything to strain and tear.
i cry knowing that you are suffering too.
i cry knowing that you dont know.
oh God. just help me.
wanna see how bad my life was. check my whole diary. thats how bad it was.
acidfitch.diaryland.com
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