Monday, March 07, 2005
a quick update. 've been working. yeps. and i found a school to be in already. queensfield business school. hopefully its the right choice.:)
the thought of havin' to quit the job scares me. 'cos i know i will miss it. but i dont know why but i am just happy that i am not quiting! what i meant was, they need me(yes me! :P) and i offered to do part time. so after school i will like rush there and work. isnt that cool or cool? well both. =] so now i have gotta juggle my studies and work together. who cares, i know i wont be exhausted well 'cos His got me in His arms and i've got Him in me. seriously, i cant bare to leave my workplace. dont ask, 'cos i wont know why either. its just the way how my body acts. yeahs.
i just realised that there is more to marine biology other than the animals that trap me to love it. its just something which i still cant figure out though. and i found one more funny thing in me. that is, i have the habit to observe people. the way they behave and react, and i seem to know how they will react if some specific things happen to them. weird weird. i dont really know how to express or articulate it out but its just THIS THING thats in me. this THING is not good. even though its special. it isnt good. the things i get from observing people makes me turn against them. for some good reasons it just had to be that way... why why why.. one thing after the other. it just got to be me. but i love this THING. eventhough its bad. errrh. yea.
i am not condemning myself. obviously i wont. i am not gonna be stupid to be stupid again. duhs. i just wanna find out. yeah so could anyone just bomb me with some answers. be chatty ppl. c-h-a-t-t-y. this is the time to be K-P-O. but with out the attitude of being so "understanding". aaannnsswers will do. i am being fussy i know. dont have to yak it out.
another thing. whats the true meaning of unique. well most ppl will say that unique means some charisma you have that others dont. or some thing special that you have that others cant figure out but its just in you. well some genius must have the ans. then again, if you have something that others dont, and that "others" have things that you dont. whats the use of the word unique and special? okok, i know. my mind is taking me too far. i am always thinking senseless stuffs that cause me to be unstable in some way, mad.
whats with me anyway?
-christine`
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