Saturday, July 09, 2005
argh! i am back from bible study. yes i shld be glad and cheerful. BUT I AM NOT.
its just the same ol' thing again. COMING HOME LATE. its like becoming a big deal to my dad. not so much to my mom though. thats the diff btw ppl with Christ and ppl without Christ.
i still dont know how to explain how i feel. its like one big long ARGH!
i dont care if u cant give me much freedom yet. but hello? what abt some privacy pls? yes i know this is happening amongst all the teenagers complaining abt freedom and stuffs. but i am like 17?! ok so what if i am 17 right? but hey, ppl do need privacy ever since they are like young. dont tell me u dont have any privacy to go to the loo and do ur business.
i got a feeling i am reacting quite exaggeratingly just cos' u touch my phone or see the wallpaper or sth else u did. but it just makes me feel uncomfortable that you have to sneak arnd like that. i tot maybe u might leave my phone alone so i didnt really went back to the rm. but went i got back, my phone's light is on. OKAY I AM GETTING FURIOUS OVER SOME SMALL MATTER. but its really very uncomfortable ok!
*dad i know its hard for u to communicate with me.but this is not the way. going to church, listening to sermons and having Jesus has completely change my life. pls dont tell me you cant see it. unless of cos those ppl in my church lies abt me being more glorious. i do admit i spend more time in church then with you but what can i do. i dont wanna try hard to pls you anymore, cos whatever i do.. nth can change the things that happen before. the scar that u left in me and the scar that i left in you and mom. trusting my Father above is all i can do. you have the rights to be jealous yes. but its the fact. i am sorry but my mind is born to think further than what it is suppose to. its not my fault for having the words "running away frm home" implanted in my mind. my mind just matures faster than what i and you can expect. i dont know what i can do to make you understand. i am really sorry. so sorry...i am really sorry. i love you but i dont know why i cant open up to you. it hurts like mad...
-christine`
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